Tuesday, August 19, 2008
12:49 AM

Is raining so heavy outside just now ..
I am going mad for staying at home ..
why cant she stop nagging ..
Why i cant have some peace at home ..
I miss him so much ..
I miss him until i going get crazy !!
I can stop thinking about him ..

The rain was pouring over me ...
The wind was blowing ..
I was shivering under the rain ..
My heart was crying also ..
Feel like shouting out loud until u can hear me at LCK
How i wish he could be there for me..
I really very scare one day he will leave me ..
Regardless of how many times ,
he assure me that he wont..
But i scare ..

I feel so lonely ...
I really dont know who to turn too..
who can i really pour out to..
I dont know ...
I just simply hate that he is in army ..
I feel so terrible ..

Everyone seems to treat me like dog...
Need to get stuff done , call me over ..
Need someone to talk to when no1 for u all to tok to , call me ..
But when u all dun need this thing to be done ..
You all chase me away ..
What is this !!
I am not your dog !
I can be there for you all
But can u all be there for me too..

Awaiting for his call almost every minutes ..
Every hour , minutes , seconds is torture to me ..
Do you know ..
Finally the phone ring ..
I was so happy ..
But ..
You ask me how your cert ...
Told you i sat until the rain for half and hour ..
You never say anything ..
Do you really care ..
Told you i feel so terrible , so lonely and scare ..
You never say a word of comfort ..
Instead you ask me to stop throwing temper ..
And u have to put down phone ...
So.. u call to ..
ask whether is things done for you ,
not to comfort or talk to me ?
You hurt me so deeply until
i cant breath at that moment ..
I feel like ending my life NOW..
even you dont care about me anymore ..
You are so far so far away from me ..
Far until i dont see a place in your heart anymore ....
I worry about you every single day ..
Do you know ..
I scare you mix with wrong accompany ...
I worry ...
But i cant do anything ...
Or i can is to see you walking further and further from me ...
Beyond my reach ...
I feel so scared and hurt ..
If i die now ..
Will u know ?
Will u care ?
Will u be sad ?
I dont knw ..
My heart bleeds with every cut on my hand...

I cant lose him ..
Losing him equal losing the whole world ....
i dun know anything now ...

all about moi
<3 Shanniie
<3 19
<3 with moi hubby
<3 11 0ct 1988

More ...

<3 Simply Mie <3
--- Blur Princess
--- Noisy
--- Emotional
--- love to throw tratum
--- Stubborn
--- Childish
--- Prefectionist
--- Daydreamer



WishList
<3 Be with my hubby forever
<3 Travel Around the world
<3 Open my own cafe
<3 having a pink room
<3 lots and lots of money
<3 slim back down to 60
<3 be more confident
<3 N95 for hubby
<3 Gucci bag



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