Monday, August 18, 2008
7:18 PM

He went army for more than 1 month..But still i cant get use to it ..
Life was so boring and meaningless ...
I feel that i lost direction , i dont know what to do now ... and what i want ..
Why life must be so hash on me ?
Why must i go through all this ?
Why mus t learn to be independent ?
I don want .. I want life to be back to normal with him around ..

Life suddenly turn so boring ...
No him , No shopping , No fun ,
No quarrel , No smile and laughter ..

I hate staying at home .. going mad soon
But i cant , i just simply dont have the courage to go out myself and
get things done on my own ..
But is there any else i could turn to ..
I feel so useless ...

I cant find any sense of belonging anywhere ..
Home , School . Religion ..
Feel so lonely and scared now ...
How i going face all this that i am going through ..

What if one day .. he leave me forever and wont return to my side ? how ?
Will this day ever happen ma ?

I think i totally dont know what i typing now ..
just type anything that come to my mind ...

Can anyone please tell me ? ??

Now outside was raining heavily ..
Rain will stop eventually ..
But when will the rain inside my heart stop !!
When then i can see rainbow ?

This still the starting obstacles that we were be facing ...
There still so much for me face .. and i handle all this ?
My mum , His mum ...
My religion , His religion ...
Our future ...

all about moi
<3 Shanniie
<3 19
<3 with moi hubby
<3 11 0ct 1988

More ...

<3 Simply Mie <3
--- Blur Princess
--- Noisy
--- Emotional
--- love to throw tratum
--- Stubborn
--- Childish
--- Prefectionist
--- Daydreamer



WishList
<3 Be with my hubby forever
<3 Travel Around the world
<3 Open my own cafe
<3 having a pink room
<3 lots and lots of money
<3 slim back down to 60
<3 be more confident
<3 N95 for hubby
<3 Gucci bag



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